No more babies!

I just watched a movie at Arun's place and it forced thoughts inside that I could not battle. The movie takes you to 2027 and a time when women are no longer fertile. In the next hundred years the human race would be extinct since they cannot procreate. There is civil war and refugees in England being chased out. At the centre of it all is the protagonist who is lonely with clearly no sense of purpose in life. One of the dialogues in the movie, "I feel like shit when I wake up, I feel like shit when I go to work" - clearly highlighting the desolation of the character. Many of us can relate to his loneliness and a life that one lives because it is tougher to stop breathing.

The purpose he is thwarted with is to save the only girl who is pregnant and in a world filled with remorse and anger nobody knows what reactions it would encourage. She is a refugee being helped by the protagonist and it is nobody's guess that she does survive in the end. The theme is powerful but what is rather thought provoking is the ugliness around the world. For a moment I thought, would this be a world worth living? I was immediately corrected since I may be leading a fairly normal life but there are places and countries where this is life today. The script has been creative but they have taken all their notes for a tomorrow from what they see today. It sure is futuristic in terms of a biological disorder but life in England of 2027 is no different from many countries of today.

Now shifting the focus to my thoughts, not long ago did I see myself moving towards a life where surprises where limited and a very regular life was set for me. I so desired it that when boredom would set in I would push my mind to the beauty of a normal regular life and the content that it offered. Life changes as we all know and it did change for me too. The most obvious things became a make believe and I was led to a point where my sense of purpose was missing. It was like a free fall, nervousness, angst, fear yet the grit to get it all done with. At every moment I questioned myself if I would wither before I land or would I land to wither and this did not offer any solution. Sometimes in fury I would curse that one moment that changed the pace of my life. But somwhere along the line I got accustomed to the uncertainity and began to believe in the certainity of uncertainity. It is a very emancipating feeling and with all its oddities it offers a haven to me given there is a lack of purpose in my life. Suddenly I have stopped worrying about whether I was pushed into the free fall or it was my choice since this doesnot offer any resolve to living.

Imagine the world surrounding you is burning with rage and people slice each other like vegetables and defining a purpose in doing so. Would you rather mind a purposeless life in days like these?

The movie leaves me extremely humbled. There is so much more that I can still dream of and so few that I can imagine to be dreadful. With the imagination of peope on the celluloid and certainly a depiction of some experiences that led to their wilder and morbid themes it only scares me on how long I can remain unscathed what is going around our world.

I certainly cannot imagine a world without children expecially when I desire to get back to my childhood and feel safer and happier.