Gibberish - Classical Conditioning

It has ben sometime since I scribled on my blog. Some of my friends have been checking on me and asking me to write more often. The last few attempts were futile since I could not get myself to frame two sentences that made any sense. I am beginning to realise that I am becoming a martyr for no cause and it makes me dizzy sometimes.

Its embarassing to continue to feel disillusioned and then fill out pages whining about the how lost am I situation on the blog. When I read other's blogs (my favourites are Arun and Akshay of course) it fills me with a sense of urgency to get out and beyond the lost kid mode. Yes Akshay you are right, I need to take the same remedial steps that I continue to preach and the truth is I am not doing anything about it.

Some of my friends are really concerned about how I am leading up to fulfilment in my personal life and clearly I am not demonstrating much strength or tact in being able to steer clear of further complications. Honestly, I do not mind the uncertainty and I think I am still not willing to drift away from things I believe in(regardless of the complications).

Have any of you read Kafka? He has a knack of writing paragraphs which do not connect to each other and really baffling the reader from time to time. I may not be a literary genius like him but certainly this piece is going to lend itself to a similar response from my dear readers.

Before I sign off let me share what I have been up to.....

- Watched a few desi movies - Laaga Chunari and Bhool Bhulaiya... No comments just that I will continue to watch my bollywood movies :-)
- Watched a lovely movie - Death at a funeral
- Have read a few pages of An Equal Music and suddenly lost all interest in reading. To get myself back on track I went to Borders and picked up two new books. Kept them back in my book shelf an attempting to continue with Equal Music. It is not about the book, it is about my distracted soul.... Will be back to reading in a few days.
- Looking forward to my trip back home
- Going mad shopping gifts. Its always tough. So many friends and family.

Well, I sign off here.