I have quit smoking on 4th October at about 21.30 hrs. Had a cigarette at about 21.15 hrs with an acquaintance and he must find me queer when he hears that I have quit suddenly.
Anyway, I was in the cab and thinking about my sinus and other ailments and how my smoking only worsens it. Not that it was the moment of truth but something in the air was more conducive to non smoking community and I just decided to give it a go. I walked into Rahul's house and my first words were, " I have decided to quit smoking!" I liked the reaction, "When? Now or from tomorrow." Actually I had thought to myself that it would be from the next day so I can consume the last three in my pack but the sarcasm in the air got the better of me and I quit that very minute.
Four hours passed without much celebration or pangs but as I woke up in the morning and the enthusiasm began to wear off with my body and mind revolting to get some of that nicotine, I began to act edgy. I am pretty confident that I will break away from this habit but it sure isn't easy my friend.
I was in discussion with a client and for most of my conversation I was trying to explain how my mind feels clouded and maybe that is the nicotine doing the magic. It is embarrassing to ramble off without any control but well its all for a noble cause :-)
And what could make life easier than having a friend who gives you a five minute non stop speech on why I need not quit smoking. Strangely, it did help in not smoking at all for the first day. So, in 27 hours I had controlled my craving.
Day 2 has begun at 14:00 hrs since I was sleeping for nearly 12 hours. I am annoyed, feeling low and irritable. But until 18:00 hrs I have not touched the stick.
It is interesting to document my feeling of helplessness and the dependence over something as inconsequential as a cigarette that it is the only thing on my mind for the last day and half. Imagine dreaming of cigarettes....I did that too :-)
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One small step for a man... one giant leap for... ahem... the same man.
Way to go Sukesh. All those days of telling you to quit smoking... and finally you shake it off on impulse!!
For a few days, you are gonna feel like shit... talk to people who you think may be supportive of your decision... like me.
Once the cravings cease - you will feel better.
I'm happy for you. Don't make this comment seem redundant in a few days!!
You're commitment is indeed commendable. I'm going to quit as well. We can help each other like a support group (remember SPAT?- Single Parents Alone together)
Long time...very happy you quit...its a terrible habit.
Very good Sukesh, way to go.... even though the decision to quit smoking was impulsive, I am glad you stuck with it. And like any other bad habit, this too will take some time to chuck..but where there is a will there is a way.... love Rams
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